BlueMoon

'Mampir UGD'

2007-11-11T10:25:00.000+07:00

Iseng banget orang mampir ke UGD ya? Tapi jangan salah... di musim kurang jelas seperti sekarang-sekarang ini UGD lumayan jd tempat yg sering dikunjungi orang-orang. Seperti juga yang terjadi pada saya tadi malam. Mampir UGD demi mendapat sehembusan napas :p . Apa pasal? begini ceritanya:
Saya dan pasangan menghadiri sebuah resepsi pernikahan di TMII, sekitar jam 20.50 kami beranjak pulang. Baruuuu saja keluar dr gerbang TMII saya mulai merasakan sulit bernapas (serangan asma yang memang sudah 1 bln ini kambuhnya kurang ajar)...saya pikir kali ini kemungkinan krn agak kedinginan (sempat sedikit berhujan2an td mnuju resepsi) plus beberapa bapak2 yang kurang pemahaman terhadap peraturan pemerintah "Dilarang merokok di tempat umum" dan dgn santai nya merokok di dalam ruang resepsi (biasa kan cari tempat di luar) sehingga saya mau tidak mau terpapar.

Sialnya lagi, saat serangan mulai bertambah parah, ketika saya merogoh tas utk mencari inhaler (obat hirup asma) yang seharusnya senantiasa saya bawa, kok ya gak ada... baru saya ingat sepertinya saya tidak bawa :( . Serangan asma mulai dibumbui dengan sedikit kepanikan krn tdk ada inhaler. Untunga saja pasangan saya tidak menunjukan kepanika nya, dia menenangkan saya sambil menambah laju mobil. Jarak yang harus kami tempuh masih lumayan jauh (TMII-mayestik).

Menjelang keluar tol di kuningan, sesaknya semakin parah, hingga sudah tidak mampu mengeluarkan sepatah katapun... berkeringat..dan badan melemas. Melihat hal itu pasangan saya langsung menawarkan utk k UGD, krn msh terlalu jauh utk sampai rumah. Walhasil kami mnuju ke sebuah RS di warung buncit (Jakarta Medical Center).

Akhirnya.. sampai juga, sebelum saya benar2 kehabisan oksigen... sesampainya di ugd, setelah dijelaskan masalahnya, seorang dokter jaga dan suster mulai sibuk2 menyiapkan peralatan utk perawatan. Yang agak lucu adalah sebelum sang dokter menengok ke arah saya (dia sambil mengomabdikan kepada suster apa saja yang harus disiapkan... dia mengajak saya ngobrol, menanyakan keadaan dan mulai kapan serangannya. Hehehe saya yang sudah tidak mampu bersuara kecuali suara 'mengi' yang kadang ada kandang tdk dr saluran napas... hanya bisa mengangkat alis sebelah, berharap sang dokter menengok dan melihat keadaan saya yg bisa dibilang sudah parah :P . Ketika akhirnya dia menengok, baru raut mukanya berubah melihat saya yang sudah amat sangat sulit mengatur lalu lintas udara ke saluran napas. Langsung dia meminta suster utk mempercepat menyiapkan.

Lalu, apa saja yang diberikan? obat inhalasi melalui nebulizer (lumayan efektif utk serangan asma akut krn dalam keadaan yang sudah sulit sekali menarik napas, obat akan masuk dgn sendirinya ke saluran napas), dan suntikan. Lumayan lama saya harus menghirup dr alat nebulizer itu, menurut dokter 15 kemudian diberi oksigen murni. 15 mnt kemudian sang dokter memeriksa lagi ternyata sesak nya masih berat, sehingga setelah nanti diberi oksigen saya menghirup nebulizer lg, setelah diberiksa lagi ternyata masih agak berat, walhasil saya diberi 3x pengulangan nebulizer-oksigen-nebulizer-oksigen-nebulizer-oksigen. Jadi total2 sekitar 2 jam sana di UGD.

Saat saya sudah mulai bisa berbicara sang dokter mulai mengajak ngobrol...menanyakan kenapa bisa parah sekali serangannya, ketika saya bilang "inhaler nya ketinggalan dok" baru dia mengerti kalau asma saya memang agak berat. Dia bercerita bulan2 ini memang banyak sekali yang datang malam karena serangan asma, maklum cuaca lagi gak jelas, dalam satu malam paling sedikit ada 4 pasien UGD yang terserang asma, tapi semua nya rata2 asma ringan sehingga cukup diberi satu 'ronde' nebulizer-oksigen saja sudah langsung membaik.
Sekitar jam 24.00 sayapun diperbolehkan pulang dengan dibekali beberapa obat (lagi), dan nasihat2 agar lain kali jgn sampai lupa bawa inhaler dan menggunakan nya secara teratur selain saat serangan (obat hirup yang saya gunakan saat ini adalah Symbicort Turbuhaler, yg selain sebagai 'rescue inhaler' juga untuk treatment pencegahan serangan2 akut).

Ya nasib memang..penderita asma, apalagi di kota besar seperti Jakarta, selain faktor alam yaitu cuaca yang gak jelas, juga banyak faktor pencetus.. polusi, asap rokok, dan debu rumah biasanya pencetus yang peling sering ditemukan di kota2 besar.
Jadi pelajaran kali ini:

1. Jangan sampai ketinggalan inhaler.
2. Lebih siap dgn berbagai tindakan preventif
3. Para perokok tolong..kasihanilah sekitarmu!!!

Gambar Nebulizer (pengobatan dgn penguapan 2 jenis obat, yg diberikan ketika saya d UGD)

Nebulizer. (gambar diambil dr: www.mercurymed.com )

CoolNeb
Nebulizer utk terapi.. (hehehe the visually cool side of medication :p )

Sekian... terimakasih!!!!

Singing in the Rain

2007-09-15T03:58:00.000+07:00

A really fun to watch video... enjoy it!!

Jakarta Fight Hunger: Walk the World 2007

2007-05-13T02:26:00.000+07:00

Ikutan yuuukk...

http://www.fighthunger.org/en/wtw07/id/jakarta

Kabar Baru untuk Penderita Asma

2007-04-27T07:55:00.000+07:00

Asma, penyakit menahun yang berupa penyempitan saluran napas (ketika kambuh) ini memang merupakan penyakit yang banyak kita jumpai, terutama di kota besar, di Indonesia sendiri dari beberapa sumber yang pernah saya baca ada sekitar 7-8% orang yang menderita asma dan terus meningkat setiap tahunnya. Ini diakibatkan antara lain karena semakin buruknya kualitas udara yang kita hirup sehari-hari. Ketika saya kecil saya mengenal asma sebagai suatu penyakit turunan yang kita derita sejak kanak-kanak, namun beberapa tahun terakhir ini ternyata banyak juga penderita asma yang mendapatkan serangan pertamanya saat sudah dewasa. Asma ini bisa kambuh dikarenakan berbagai faktor pencetus seperti alergen, atau kelelahan saat melakukan kegiatan fisik, perubahan cuaca, sakit flu, emosi, bahkan bisa juga karena luapan kegembiraan. Tingkat dan jenis sensitivitasnya berbeda pada tiap orang, saya sendiri memiliki sensitifitas berlebih (alergi bahasa bakunya...) thd asap rokok, debu, polusi udara (sehingga jika sudah terlalu lama berdiam diri di Jakarta serangan akan sering sekali timbul), beberapa obat2an (aspirin), MSG (hehehe hidup sehat judulnya), dan lain lain. Nah, kalau kita bisa menghindari faktor-faktor pencetus ini, tentu serangan asma pun bisa dikendalikan.

Bagi anda yang memderita asma juga, tentu mengerti bagaimana rasanya bila terjadi serangan, atau bagi anda yang memiliki buah hati yg menderita asma, saya sendiri kadang tdk tega melihat anak-anak yang sedang terserang asma (hahaha walaupun itu juga terjadi pada saya :P ). Sementara jika anda bukan penderita asma dan penasaran seperti apa rasanya, kira-kira begini (ini lagi-lagi saya baca dari sebuah jurnal kedokteran):
1. Coba anda lari2 selama 3 menit, sampai napas terengah-engah
2. Ambil sebuah sedotan dan bernapaslah hanya dari mulut menggunakan sedotan itu
3. Terakhir, ketika bernapas tekan bagian tengah sedotan sehingga hanya sekitar 30% bagian yang terbuka dan bisa dilewati udara (ingat bernapas hanya melalui mulut).
Untuk mengurangi seranganpun terdapat berbagai obat-obatan dari mulai yang diminum, dihirup, hingga suntikan. Bagi mereka yang cenderung terserang secara berkala (sering) obat hirup (inhaller) kadang menjadi pilihan terbaik, obat jenis ini mampu melebarkan saluran napas dengan cepat namun seidkit sekali efek sampingnya terhadap organ-organ lain karena reaksinya langsung kepada sasaran, tidak seeperti obat-obatan yang diminum.

Nah, sebuah berita yang saya baca di www.sciencedaily.com , di Amerika sedang diadakan sebuah penelitian tentang asma yaitu "Bronchial Thermoplasty", sebuah percobaan untuk mengatasi asma tanpa penggunaan obat-obatan, melainkan dengan penggunaan panas untuk membakar "otot-otot halus" yang biasa berkontraksi ketika serangan asma. Suatu frekuensi radio tingkat rendah atau energi thermal akan melalui otot-otot saluran bronchial kita, dan akan 'merusak' otot-otot halus ini, dokter sendiri akan bisa mengontrol sebesar apa 'kerusakan' yang diperlukan. Percobaan yang sudah dilakukan adalah dengan menggunakan metode ini terhadap beberapa penderita asma 1 jam setiap harinya selama 3 minggu, hasil yang didapat adalah penurunan signifikan terhadap penggunaan obat-obatan seperti inhaler oleh para penderita itu.

Hal ini memang bukan merupakan penyembuhan, tetapi sepertinya cara yang cukup menjanjikan bagi penderita asma untuk bisa lebih mengendalikan penyakitnya. Sebab saya yakin bagi para penderita asma dimanapun, sekedar untuk mengurangi serangan saja sudah merupakan suatu hal yang amat berarti. Kita cuma bisa berharap, percobaan ini berjalan lancar dan berhasil, dan bisa kita nikmati di Indonesia ;)

Nemu di Blog Tetangga... ;)

2007-04-04T07:49:00.000+07:00

Ini kartu saya, katanya...

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Ketika Steve Jobs Angkat Bicara

2007-02-24T17:34:00.000+07:00

Awal Februari lalu Om Steve angkat bicara mengenai iPod, DRM (Digital Rights Management), dan 4 perusahaan musik terbesar (Universal, Sony BMG, Warner and EMI), intinya sih pendapat dia mengenai teknologi hak cipta, hak copy, dll.
Mari kita simak apa saja yang dia bahas ;)

Thoughts on Music

Steve Jobs
February 6, 2007

With the stunning global success of Apple’s iPod music player and iTunes online music store, some have called for Apple to “open” the digital rights management (DRM) system that Apple uses to protect its music against theft, so that music purchased from iTunes can be played on digital devices purchased from other companies, and protected music purchased from other online music stores can play on iPods. Let’s examine the current situation and how we got here, then look at three possible alternatives for the future.

To begin, it is useful to remember that all iPods play music that is free of any DRM and encoded in “open” licensable formats such as MP3 and AAC. iPod users can and do acquire their music from many sources, including CDs they own. Music on CDs can be easily imported into the freely-downloadable iTunes jukebox software which runs on both Macs and Windows PCs, and is automatically encoded into the open AAC or MP3 formats without any DRM. This music can be played on iPods or any other music players that play these open formats.

The rub comes from the music Apple sells on its online iTunes Store. Since Apple does not own or control any music itself, it must license the rights to distribute music from others, primarily the “big four” music companies: Universal, Sony BMG, Warner and EMI. These four companies control the distribution of over 70% of the world’s music. When Apple approached these companies to license their music to distribute legally over the Internet, they were extremely cautious and required Apple to protect their music from being illegally copied. The solution was to create a DRM system, which envelopes each song purchased from the iTunes store in special and secret software so that it cannot be played on unauthorized devices.

Apple was able to negotiate landmark usage rights at the time, which include allowing users to play their DRM protected music on up to 5 computers and on an unlimited number of iPods. Obtaining such rights from the music companies was unprecedented at the time, and even today is unmatched by most other digital music services. However, a key provision of our agreements with the music companies is that if our DRM system is compromised and their music becomes playable on unauthorized devices, we have only a small number of weeks to fix the problem or they can withdraw their entire music catalog from our iTunes store.

To prevent illegal copies, DRM systems must allow only authorized devices to play the protected music. If a copy of a DRM protected song is posted on the Internet, it should not be able to play on a downloader’s computer or portable music device. To achieve this, a DRM system employs secrets. There is no theory of protecting content other than keeping secrets. In other words, even if one uses the most sophisticated cryptographic locks to protect the actual music, one must still “hide” the keys which unlock the music on the user’s computer or portable music player. No one has ever implemented a DRM system that does not depend on such secrets for its operation.

The problem, of course, is that there are many smart people in the world, some with a lot of time on their hands, who love to discover such secrets and publish a way for everyone to get free (and stolen) music. They are often successful in doing just that, so any company trying to protect content using a DRM must frequently update it with new and harder to discover secrets. It is a cat-and-mouse game. Apple’s DRM system is called FairPlay. While we have had a few breaches in FairPlay, we have been able to successfully repair them through updating the iTunes store software, the iTunes jukebox software and software in the iPods themselves. So far we have met our commitments to the music companies to protect their music, and we have given users the most liberal usage rights available in the industry for legally downloaded music.

With this background, let’s now explore three different alternatives for the future.

The first alternative is to continue on the current course, with each manufacturer competing freely with their own “top to bottom” proprietary systems for selling, playing and protecting music. It is a very competitive market, with major global companies making large investments to develop new music players and online music stores. Apple, Microsoft and Sony all compete with proprietary systems. Music purchased from Microsoft’s Zune store will only play on Zune players; music purchased from Sony’s Connect store will only play on Sony’s players; and music purchased from Apple’s iTunes store will only play on iPods. This is the current state of affairs in the industry, and customers are being well served with a continuing stream of innovative products and a wide variety of choices.

Some have argued that once a consumer purchases a body of music from one of the proprietary music stores, they are forever locked into only using music players from that one company. Or, if they buy a specific player, they are locked into buying music only from that company’s music store. Is this true? Let’s look at the data for iPods and the iTunes store – they are the industry’s most popular products and we have accurate data for them. Through the end of 2006, customers purchased a total of 90 million iPods and 2 billion songs from the iTunes store. On average, that’s 22 songs purchased from the iTunes store for each iPod ever sold.

Today’s most popular iPod holds 1000 songs, and research tells us that the average iPod is nearly full. This means that only 22 out of 1000 songs, or under 3% of the music on the average iPod, is purchased from the iTunes store and protected with a DRM. The remaining 97% of the music is unprotected and playable on any player that can play the open formats. It’s hard to believe that just 3% of the music on the average iPod is enough to lock users into buying only iPods in the future. And since 97% of the music on the average iPod was not purchased from the iTunes store, iPod users are clearly not locked into the iTunes store to acquire their music.

The second alternative is for Apple to license its FairPlay DRM technology to current and future competitors with the goal of achieving interoperability between different company’s players and music stores. On the surface, this seems like a good idea since it might offer customers increased choice now and in the future. And Apple might benefit by charging a small licensing fee for its FairPlay DRM. However, when we look a bit deeper, problems begin to emerge. The most serious problem is that licensing a DRM involves disclosing some of its secrets to many people in many companies, and history tells us that inevitably these secrets will leak. The Internet has made such leaks far more damaging, since a single leak can be spread worldwide in less than a minute. Such leaks can rapidly result in software programs available as free downloads on the Internet which will disable the DRM protection so that formerly protected songs can be played on unauthorized players.

An equally serious problem is how to quickly repair the damage caused by such a leak. A successful repair will likely involve enhancing the music store software, the music jukebox software, and the software in the players with new secrets, then transferring this updated software into the tens (or hundreds) of millions of Macs, Windows PCs and players already in use. This must all be done quickly and in a very coordinated way. Such an undertaking is very difficult when just one company controls all of the pieces. It is near impossible if multiple companies control separate pieces of the puzzle, and all of them must quickly act in concert to repair the damage from a leak.

Apple has concluded that if it licenses FairPlay to others, it can no longer guarantee to protect the music it licenses from the big four music companies. Perhaps this same conclusion contributed to Microsoft’s recent decision to switch their emphasis from an “open” model of licensing their DRM to others to a “closed” model of offering a proprietary music store, proprietary jukebox software and proprietary players.

The third alternative is to abolish DRMs entirely. Imagine a world where every online store sells DRM-free music encoded in open licensable formats. In such a world, any player can play music purchased from any store, and any store can sell music which is playable on all players. This is clearly the best alternative for consumers, and Apple would embrace it in a heartbeat. If the big four music companies would license Apple their music without the requirement that it be protected with a DRM, we would switch to selling only DRM-free music on our iTunes store. Every iPod ever made will play this DRM-free music.

Why would the big four music companies agree to let Apple and others distribute their music without using DRM systems to protect it? The simplest answer is because DRMs haven’t worked, and may never work, to halt music piracy. Though the big four music companies require that all their music sold online be protected with DRMs, these same music companies continue to sell billions of CDs a year which contain completely unprotected music. That’s right! No DRM system was ever developed for the CD, so all the music distributed on CDs can be easily uploaded to the Internet, then (illegally) downloaded and played on any computer or player.

In 2006, under 2 billion DRM-protected songs were sold worldwide by online stores, while over 20 billion songs were sold completely DRM-free and unprotected on CDs by the music companies themselves. The music companies sell the vast majority of their music DRM-free, and show no signs of changing this behavior, since the overwhelming majority of their revenues depend on selling CDs which must play in CD players that support no DRM system.

So if the music companies are selling over 90 percent of their music DRM-free, what benefits do they get from selling the remaining small percentage of their music encumbered with a DRM system? There appear to be none. If anything, the technical expertise and overhead required to create, operate and update a DRM system has limited the number of participants selling DRM protected music. If such requirements were removed, the music industry might experience an influx of new companies willing to invest in innovative new stores and players. This can only be seen as a positive by the music companies.

Much of the concern over DRM systems has arisen in European countries. Perhaps those unhappy with the current situation should redirect their energies towards persuading the music companies to sell their music DRM-free. For Europeans, two and a half of the big four music companies are located right in their backyard. The largest, Universal, is 100% owned by Vivendi, a French company. EMI is a British company, and Sony BMG is 50% owned by Bertelsmann, a German company. Convincing them to license their music to Apple and others DRM-free will create a truly interoperable music marketplace. Apple will embrace this wholeheartedly.

Sumber: http://www.apple.com/hotnews/thoughtsonmusic/

A Sight for Sore Eyes

2007-02-14T14:53:00.000+07:00

Mudah-mudahan lumayan menghibur, sementara orang-orang memasang foto-foto dokumentasi banjir, saya mau memperlihatkan foto-foto indahnya jakarta beberapa minggu sebelumnya, disaat kita bisa menikmati birunya langit Jakarta selama kurang lebih 2 minggu :)

Point of view dr jendela kamar ;)

Benar-benar 'Sunday' dari Pasaraya Grande Theater Building Lt.7

Magic Hour di Balkon...

Lewat Lagu

2006-11-27T21:57:00.000+07:00

Lagu ini kubuat untukmu, pada waktunya nanti akan kunyanyikan tiap nadanya.. untukmu. Namun jika waktu itu tak pernah datang, maka hanya kunyanyikan lagu ini dalam hati.. seperti saat ini.

TEMAN JIWAMU

saat semua berpaling, tinggalkan dirimu memanggil sepimu
kala gelap melanda, padamkan cerahmu ciptakan gundahmu

bridge: pandanglah sebuah bintang, tersenyum padamu dia ada untukmu
bulanpun akan bersinar, terangi malam mu dan aku disini

Reff: Jadikan aku teman jiwamu, kan kujaga engkau sungguh
Jadikan aku teman jiwamu, takkan kusakiti engkau , sungguh
*maka semua indah kau dan aku

Ku tahu hatimu yang lelah mereka sakiti, tuk kesekian kali
Ku tahu kau pernah terbang dan kini terjatuh dan terluka lagi
(bridge)

07/11/06

ck ck ck...ternyataaa

2006-10-03T04:11:00.000+07:00

Hehehe.. setelah kemarin 'merenung'... nemu nih tulisan berbulan2 lalu, jd inget.. enak banget rasanya :) tanpa judul.. dah kehabisan kata2:

Waktu, aku mengerti mengapa kau harus mengalir, walau apa pun yang terjadi. Namun kuingin kau berhenti sekarang, biarkan aku menikmati indahnya. Rasa yang pernah ada yang terhenti dulu, rasa yang menyelimuti, melindungi hidupku, hariku, waktu ku dan tiap saat ku, masa itu. Rasa yang mencipta harapku, memahat senyum diwajahku, melukis indah dunia ku. Rasa yang lalu kuusir pergi, karena bosan akan indah.

Waktu, kumengerti kau tak mungkin berpaling, namun izinkan lah aku menepi, beristirahat ditengah langkah ku yang tergesa selama ini. Ku ingin nikmati lagi, hangatnya matahariku, birunya langitku, sejuknya anginku. Ku ingin kembali membawa keceriaan di hatiku.. di hatinya.. siapa pun itu.

Waktu, kumengerti kau akan tetap ada, walau ku tlah hilang nanti. Walau ku tlah tenggelam dalam khilafku.. dalam sesat yang kucipta. Namun sebelum itu semua, izinkanlah aku berjalan dengan langkahmu, ku akan cari lagi sepercik air, yang dapat menciptakan harapku, akan rasa itu.. rasa yang kan ku simpan dalam perjalananku. Yang akan menuai keindahan dalam hatiku. Dan temui jalan ku lagi, temui hangatku, peluk ku, gembira dan ramai ku. Menemaninya… siapa pun itu.

Berikan aku secercah harapmu, waktu.. berikan aku kesempatan, agar ku dapat menemukan dia… siapa pun itu.

14/2/06 Di loteng Plinganser Straße 10

Sepertinya Lelah

2006-10-03T00:20:00.000+07:00

Memandang, mencari, menemukan bintang berisyarat...
berharap ingin terbang, terjatuh, menangis, tersadar...
berusaha berdiri, bangkit, kembali memandang... dan seterusnya

Jika itu yang kau sebut siklus, haruskah ku alami berkali-kali?
kembali berharap? kembali jatuh? kembali sakit?

Bagaimana jika ku berhenti memandang? berhenti berharap?
bagaimana jika, setelah terjatuh ku langsung berlari?
akankah siklus itu berubah?
akankah sakit berganti?

Atau kututup saja pintu rasaku? hingga hatiku lupa cara berharap?
agar sakit bukan lagi masalah rasa?

Belajar dari pengalaman kata mereka.
Aku tak pernah mengerti, apa yang harus kupelajari?
tak tahu lagi cara berpikir jernih.
Semua terlihat sama; gelap, tajam, memutar.. terkandang indah, namun selalu kembali ke rasa sakit itu.

Yah, kututup saja pintu rasa itu, kubuang kuncinya entah kemana
Jika ada yang menemukan, kuanggap beruntung,
siapa tahu ia bisa mencairkan kebekuan rasa yang tersimpan ini.

Untuk sekarang kubiarkan siklus itu berjalan...
namun tanpa rasa, biar tak merugi lagi aku.
Sampai kunci itu ditemukan lagi...
semoga kau.

*Akibat terlalu lama berjalan dan merenung...

Fix You, By Coldplay

2006-10-02T04:00:00.000+07:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face

And I..

Tears stream, down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face

And I..

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you.

...yup, bring yourself to me.. and I will try to fix you :)

Esperança do Amor*

2006-09-27T03:57:00.000+07:00

A noite da lua cheia
Na estrada que vai dar no mar
Eu e você, meu amor
E as sombras de nós dois

Só existe o silência neste momento
Nem uma palavra precisa de contar
Sorriso de você e sorriso meu
Podem contar tudo que existe agora

Nos braços da paz desta noite
Surgiu uma linda canção
Que canta da beleza
Que canta da esperança
Que canta da eternidade do amor
Do amor mais lindo de nós

*A song from Final Fantasy Pray
Composer: Nobuo Uematsu, Ririko Yamabuki
Arrangement: Yoshiro Nakamura
Vocals: Risa Ohki
Lyrics: Claudio Ramos

"Hope of love...
let him find me,
let us be together...
under the moonlight
please be here
soon... "

Just stop it...

2006-09-18T09:41:00.000+07:00

Don't u realize by now that you're not yourself?
We're grown ups now, each of us is a single seperated individual, a whole human beings...
So please... stop following me, stop trying to be like me...
I belive you have your own interests that you can do, instead of doing what I'm doing,
please from now, just try to find your own thing..
I believe that you're different from me, I know so.
U have to realize we're two different person.
Stop being my shadow...
Similarity is ok, but combine with differences is better..
So stop it, find yourself, find your own ways, and build your own future.

Claudio o Macaquinho Verde...

2006-08-31T09:58:00.000+07:00

My new pet...

I love monkeys
Named it after a dear friend ;) hehehe
Green is his favorite color somehow (and my 2nd favorite)
Claudio eats bananas (yeah me too!!)
Cute, smart, entertaining and attractive (in his own ways)
Claudio o macaquinho verde... if only you're for real
play with me play with me play with me play with me

We eat bananas.. yummy yummy bananas!! :D

Transformers

2006-08-30T07:57:00.000+07:00

Optimus Prime is back!! Yes.. Transformers the Movie..due July 4, by Dreamworks and Paramount Pictures. Can't wait to see another battle between Autobots and Decepticons?? well me neither.

Oh yeah and Sony BMG Music Entertainment also going to release the TRANSFORMERS: The Movie 20th Anniversary Special Edition DVD (it's the special edition from the 1986's movie) sometime 'round in November.

So let's see if Optimus Prime and Megatron still have the same power and skill as we've known before... or will it be more???

www.transformersthemovie.com

Tanah Airku

2006-08-29T19:06:00.000+07:00

Tanah Airku? mengapa tiba-tiba terdengar nasionalis ya?

Hahaha gara-gara lagu-lagu nasional yang diperdengarkan saat pertemuan dengan para mahasiswa angkatan 2006 (walaupun diakhiri dengan lagu SMS yg lagi tobh bangath itu), jadi teringat tentang kecintaan terhadap negeri sendiri. Betapa dulu bercita-cita benar-benar membela negara dan ingin menjadi pilot AU, betapa bisa bertahan bergabung dengan PRAMUKA (iya, Praja Muda Karana) dari kelas 1 SD sampai kuliah semester 4!! hahaha, betapa dulu bendera merah putih itu memang sesuatu yang memiliki karisma dan bermakna berani dan suci...

Jadi ingat ketika masih sekolah dulu, saat upacara bendera dan tiba-tiba tali di tiang bendera putus sehingga benderanya jatuh, dan dengan sigap melesat dari barisan untuk menangkap bendera itu sebelum menyentuh tanah. Macam serdadu yang memang siap membela negaranya.

Makin dewasa, ternyata makin banyak terlihat kekurangan dan kecurangan di sana sini... makin terasa kalau seperti ditipu. Padahal rasanya sudah diajarkan dengan baik dan benar, bagaimana berterimakasih, bagaimana menghargai, bagaimana harus berusaha dulu sebelum menikmati. Ideal memang, tapi ya itu.. semakin dewasa semakin terlihat orang-orang tidak melakukan hal yang sama, sempat ragu... tapi ah sudah terlalu mendarah daging rupanya.

Antara benci dan cinta, itu yang terasa sekarang. Benci melihat kenyataan banyak yang tidak sesuai harapan, yang seharusnya bisa lebih baik, dan tidak kunjung menemukan cara yang signifikan untuk dapat memperbaiki. Cinta karena menjadi bagiannya, menjadi salah satu sel di dalamnya, yang tidak mustahil dapat membuat suatu perubahan ke arah yang lebih baik.

Memantau dan berusaha dari luar? sempat terbesit.. sepertinya itu jalan terbaik. Ah kita lihat saja nanti.. yang penting tetap berusaha, dan yakin. Sebab masih banyak sel-sel lain yang memiliki kemampuan dan kemauan.

Tanah airku tidak kulupakan
Kan terkenang selama hidupku
Biarpun saya pergi jauh
Tidak kan hilang dari kalbu
Tanah ku yang kucintai
Engkau kuhargai

Walaupun banyak negri kujalani
Yang masyhur permai dikata orang
Tetapi kampung dan rumahku
Di sanalah kurasa senang
Tanahku tak kulupakan
Engkau kubanggakan

(Lagu Tanah Airku, ciptaan: Ibu Sud)

Yup, dimanapun aku berada.. tanah airku tetap Indonesia ;)

Bendera merah-putih diantara masyarakat Macae, propinsi Rio de Janeiro, Brasil.

Two Months Minus a Week After 27...

2006-08-21T19:09:00.000+07:00

Day dreaming? yup, that's what I do best. Since Cinderella once said that: "A dream is a wish Your heart makes". So, while doing it..I'm dreaming, wishing, and thinking all at the same time. And not only at night but often durring the day too.
Tell me about it, whoever said that dreaming is not a good thing? well for me, by dreaming I can produce more time for imaginations, and my imagination is really important in this life (let see the word "this life" as "my life" hehehe), just like Einstein said: "Imagination is more important than knowledge".
Yes, I know so... that by imagining things (and with some effort offcourse) you can actually find knowledge, than by the collaboration of the things mentioned above, your dream can really come true.

OK, now.. lets talk about the future, doesn't have to be exactly about the world's future.. individually we're just a tinny force that the existency doesn't really makes any different globally (that's a euphamism for "people don't really care wether we're death or alive" hehehe sorry no time for sarcasm..). So let's just talk about our own future, my future in this case hehehe.
Starting to think that I'm gifted and lucky enough to have been born with the abillity to feel really confident about my future, I think this kind of thought really matters if you wanna build one (a future).
Since young (not that I'm old now :P ), I am seeing the future not as a whole, but more as some assorted pieces of knowledge, abilities, hopes and dreams which will match someday, somehow, somewhere.
For example, the person I am becoming now.. yeaahh you can say something like evolution or collaboration of some of the pieces i've had since the past. What can I say, I love, stories, movies, technology, nature and sports for as long as I can remember... not to mention some new exciting things I've and will encounter on the way of this evolution. So just sit tight and watch me evolve will you.. hehehe. Like a friend said that, I'm "versatile" well thanks, taking that as a compliment ;) but these are just my way to evolve.. i've learn that everybody have their own (and can seem to be strange for other people sometimes) ways.

At least now I've got the picture of how to glued everything together. Like they always say "it's a process". So, having no doubt about my future... even though this 'twenty something' stage is kinda 'in-between', too young to be an expert, yet too old to pretend that you know nothing about the world hehehe.

Now the last thing I wanna talk about is.. the L O V E. Yeah LOVE, so I know... life brings you love bla bla bla. Sure i love my family, couple of my friends, my room, my surfboard, my books, my collection of national geographic magazines, my powerbook... hehehe. But you know... being 'single' no matter how succesfull you are, still there's some kind of a hole that needs filling in. Like Whitney Houston said: "...what's the sense of trying hard upon your dreams, without someone to share it with..." (hey you out there.. should hear the song! it's like me talking hehehe), can't you see..I'm a sensitive girl with fragile heart (yeahh keep it going like anybody's going to believe me) hehehe.
I don't know maybe..just maybe the first impression of me that people always got is.. I'm strong, independent, or whatever but as we all know.. I'm only human (even if I'm the 'weird phenomenal' one :P ).
mama said "you can't hurry love"... I know, and I'm trying not to use too much of my logical abillity in this one.. I'm sure I'll know one when I found one :) Hhhhmm so hard to find the words to express what I want to tell about this last topic.
well, let's just hear what Snow White's gonna say, I think it's more less what i want to say too:

I'm wishing for the one I love
To find me today
I'm hoping
And I'm dreaming of
The nice things he'll say

Yes quite sweet and simple don't you think?

Well thank you all for reading these messed up words of my mind... ;)

One more thing... in this stage, a nice perfect quote from Jammie Cullum's song:
"i'm a twenty something, and I'll keep being me..."

Tanpa...

2006-08-19T23:44:00.000+07:00

Ah pelangi... temani aku lagi
usir hujan ini, jangan biarkan airnya meluap memenuhi rasaku yang gundah
Kau pernah menetap disitu, kemarin, dan sebelumnya, dah bertahun-tahun yang lalu.

Rumputku hijau memang,
itulah mengapa mereka menikmati tidur,bermals-malasan,
besantai, dan bersendau gurau
Namun selalu saja ada yang salah...
selalu saja mereka pergi, tanpa permisi
menginjak-injak dan menganiaiya rumputku
Selalu.. hingga langitku murka dan tercurahlah hujan.

Mengapa? Mengapa mereka selalu pergi?
Ah pelangi, temani aku lagi.

Waking Up with Words

2006-08-09T11:53:00.000+07:00

It's for you, and all of this sprakling sensation of joy and confusion you've put me into. Let's see what tomorrow will bring us to :)

The Song of Lame

It's just another story
about me, my little heart, and the feeling that it felt.
And it's just another story
about a stranger, going my way, and a tiny room he made.

Just when I thought I was left alone
His gesture just seem to quench my thirst
But when I asked him what it was
He just said: "welcome to the real world girl"

It's just another story
'bout my plans in living this life, and the future that it may brings
And it's just another story
about a prince charming, waking me up, showing his castle as he invite me in

Just when my soul is tired of crying
And he smiles as he visit my sleep every night
But when I asked him what it was
He just said: "welcome to the real world girl"

*Trying to live my life day by day,
There's a spark of hope...
as it abandoned me sometimes.
Just don't let me think that I need you,
Or I might ended up falling in love... :)

That's it :) naahh try not to think so much..., after all these are only words ;)

MUNICH TRILOGY

2006-03-09T23:37:00.000+07:00

I like new things, different things, everything which will last.. like the memories that I have now ☺

Episode IV New Hope :P
The times that you spend alone, makes you think about things which are rarely or even never exist in your mind before. Well that’s how I felt about the time I spent in Munich, of course I discover new friends… a lot! (regarding my short duration of stay there). Still I spent at least 35% of my time alone (even if it’s in the middle of a crowd).. and I enjoyed each and every moment of it. The moment of encountering new things, new ways of thinking, different visions, new hope.

New year 2006, I think it was my first new year oceans apart from where I was born, different time zone. It was so nice, cozy, simple yet exciting… with the rest of the PlinganserStr 10 residents (except Jan), and couple of guests.

..What an enjoyable moment.. thx guys! I love it!

ARRI’s new year party, so many people were there… not much to say.. it was fun! :-)
the ambiance..
..the floor cravers..
and the rest of it all..
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What a perfect situation to start a new day, a new year.. new situation, new ambiance, and a chance to evaluate the path that you’ve walked on before. And of course… new tasks hehehe :P

“Heya Carita…you know what! I have a new task for you..” yeah.. that’s my favorite sentence of the day! Means I’m going to have something to do on that day hehehe.

Table tops! I love shooting table tops (yeah U know the kind of love that grew after U encountered something repetitively hahaha), a friend even gave me a new nickname: “Tabletop Cinematographer” cool!!

A New Hope to Conquer the Universe

Master : Padawan! I have a new task for you!.. I need you to help me win this battle, what do you think?
Padawan : Yeah, that’ll be nice!
Master : OK take the D-20 and all the ammunition that you will need
Padawan : Great…
Master : But I got some other missions to complete… and since you are the ‘fighter pilot’ so, can U do this your self ?
Padawan : Sure..it’s cool with me
Master : OK, I need you to go outside near the deathstar, it’s a perfect timing, we can use the condition of minus 55 degree centigrade to overcome the enemy, you will have to be there on standby position, and wait for my command! Understand!?
Padawan : Hhhhmmmm
Master : R U sure about this mission?
Padawan : well…
Master : R U really sure?
Padawan : Hhuuummm…
Master : You don’t want me to abort it don’t you?
Padawan : Ooouuuww
Master : Really sure U can do this? Sure you understand?
Padawan : Oouuukaaay…. Yeah..But..

All of the sudden the padawan feel this strangled sensation on her neck, at the moment she realizes that the Jedi Master is under the influence of the dark force, and uses his power against her to fulfill his needs, his ambition to take over the world!!!
Then suddenly her inner voice just scream on top of her lung and out from her mouth…

Padawan : OK AT YOUR SERVICE SIR!! YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND! I DEDICATE MY SOUL FOR YOU!!

And so the padawan walk with every effort, power, will, and everything that was left in her… to do what her master told her to.. to help him conquer the universe.. and sacrifice her pure soul…
And so the battle goes…

The remains visual evident of the mission (the images will appear not perfectly clear, because of the cosmic radiation)
Ready...

..waiting for command..

After weeks of battle the padawan flew back to the master, bringing him good news about their victory.

Master : Very well padawan, you’re a good apprentice, I’m impressed! from now on you should obey each and every single command that I have for you, without any doubt!
Padawan : Yes Sir, my Master…. Whateva’!

FORTSETZUNG IM NÄCHSTEN EPISODE...

14.02.06

2006-02-15T03:46:00.000+07:00

I swim in my ocean, watching the sky touches my water...
My favorite view... but, I'm alone

I dive deep into my ocean, colours made by my water and the sun...
playing with the spectrum as I got deeper...
really nice blend.. but I'm alone

I surf on the wave made by my water...
perfect cylindrical shape... perfect breeze to feel...
every-thing's perfect... but still, I'm alone..

Than all of a sudden, something's appear in front of me,
something strange.. didn't suppose to be here.
It's a lion!!

A lion doesn't belong here, not in my water.. nor my ocean
A lion can't swim... can't life in the water.

But something different about this one... this one can swim..
He seems to enjoy my water... my ocean
He smiles at me and says in his silent:
"may I join you?... I would love to keep you accompany"...
He didn't talk, but he speaks..
speaks with no voice, but I understand.
I calmly noded my head..
We look into each other's eyes.. and started to smile.

As the sun touches the horizon,
and make golden reflection on my water...
my heart whispers:
"I know you are a king of your jungle, but you may also be the king of my ocean... someday" :)

"Thank you for the sunset.."

C

Lets work!! :P

2006-01-01T00:48:00.000+07:00

Yes, everybody's back from their nice x-mas at home :)
So.. Alex have this re-arranging plans for the flat... move this here, move that there.. build this thing.. put it there etc, and he planed to finish it by next year (that's only couple of hours more hehehe). It's working good so far.. I think :)

On the 1st day of his re-arranging work.. he made me 'build' this shoe rack which I really enjoy making... hehehe (well just hope that it will be ok n usefull)

Alex n Jan...

It's really nice watching him (Alex) making somethings from what used to be something else (like he made some racks from the woods that were used to be a wardrobe or sumthin') hehehe. It's all reusable things.. quite a good idea, even though he have to solve some puzzle sometimes hehehe.
Alex with the drill..

The after work pose :P

Moments like these make me think.. that I really wanna re-arrange my room also.. this idea had been hanging on my mind for at least this 2 years hehe, just too busy or too lazy I guess..well it can be one of my new year resolution.. I guess :P

ooohhh I miss my room, I miss Dempo... well it's being use for the Capoeira Festival's office right now :)
"so how r the things there guys? don't sell my surfboard ok!!!" hehehe

the 1st "capofest" meeting in my room.. yeah (gak penting deh org2 pose nya!!)

Well n e way... yeah.. that's all folks :P

So Nice (Summer Samba)

2005-12-31T00:10:00.000+07:00

So Nice (Summer Samba)
(Lyrics by Paulo Sérgio Valle, Norman Gimbel)

Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
And be a team with me

So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me

Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me

Oh yeah, that would be so nice
I could see you and me, that would be nice

Bebel Gilberto

The Views...

2005-12-29T23:36:00.000+07:00

Well.. just wanna share with U guys the nice view that I had from my room (it's probably nothing special for some of U, but it's an enjoyable thing for me :) )

the neighbourhood looks nice in white

Nice sunset.. you don't get this view often in a weather like this :) I guess

Nice Quiet Days :)

2005-12-29T16:50:00.000+07:00

"Ditinggal pulang kampung"... itulah penyebab bagaimana saya bisa mendapatkan waktu untuk 'bertapa' disini. Ya, ternyata di Jerman pun tradisi pulang kampung ada juga,seperti kita kalo lebaran lah. Dan berhubung semua anggota 'kosan' disini ternyata berasal dari luar Munich.. walhasil mereka semua pulang kampung.. tinggalah saya sendiri yang tinggal di 'loteng' (kok jadi kyk Hunchback of Notre Dame yah.. hehehe). Rata2 mereka pulang tanggal 24 Desember dan kembali ke sini tanggal 28.

OK.. tanggal 24 Desember.. lumayan menyenangkan karena saya sempat mengunjungi "Christmas Market" di Marienplatz, salah satu daerah andalan kota Munich. Walaupun jam 2 semua stand dan toko2 sudah pada 'kukut-kukut', walhasil jam 3 sore saya sudah berada di rumah lagi... sendirian.. (walaupun di Jkt saya juga terbiasa sendiri di rumah, tapi kan ps. Mayestik buka sampai jam 7 malam, atau tinggal jln 15 menit ke PS, atau cegat bis dlm 10 menit sampai di PIM, dan pastinya bisa menghabiskan waktu sampai malam).

Bingung mau ngapain akhirnya pilihan pertama saya (seperti biasa) adalah browsing di internet, sambil cari2 teman yang lagi on-line. Dan lumayan... bisa menghabiskan waktu sampai tengah malam, sempet liat bubaran gereja depan yang mengadakan arak2an bawa2 lilin2 dan beberapa alat musik yang pd awalnya saya pikir ada drumband mlm2 hihihi.

25 Desember... paraaahhh.. garink abis2an hehehe... untung saja teman saya memberikan ide untuk download film2 animasi pendek yang ternyata lumayan seru, check it out: www.roosterteeth.com . Walhasil ya hampir seharian saya nonton film2 itu. Makan siang..mkn malam semua dgn bekal bawaan dr Jakarta (terlalu malas untuk keluar, dan juga gak ada toko yg buka).

Menu makan di hari natal :P

Dan akhirnya ketika sudah 'mati gaya' hehehe... justru bergaya lah saya didepan kamera, foto2 diri sendiri maksudnya... hhmmm maaf terlalu bangga dgn diri sendiri memang gak asik.. tapi gimana dong gak tahan.. mau pamer foto.. kalau orang lain mungkin akan memajang foto2 travelling ketika di monumen ini... di depan gedung itu, ditaman anu.. saya cukup memajang foto2 saya di dalam kamar.. maklum GARING BOS!!

OK.. gara2 bener2 kepepet... dan gak ada temen2 yang on-line "Hey where are U guys!!!"

Dengan sedikit menyesal.. dan banyak bangga, saya mempublikasi karya2 ini :P

Tetap berusaha setia menunggu org2 yg OL hhhmmm just feels like smilling :)

Nope.. I'm not weird.. just bored and too proud of myself hehehe

Hhhhmmm... dan baru sadar setelah bergarink2 ria.. ternyata sudah lebih dari 24 jam saya gak ngomong (kecuali ngobrol di internet yang berarti ngetik, atau tertawa krn menonton fillm2 animasi absurd itu... --> Tertawa sama sekali bukan berbicara kan?)

Waaaa... direnggut... sudah 24 jam tdk mendengar suara saya sendiri..hhmmmm
menarik juga...

Sssttt rekor ini mau diperpanjang sampai 2 hari hehehe...

My 1st Christmas Dinner

2005-12-27T04:36:00.000+07:00

I think it was the.. 22nd of December.. when the department that I work in at ARRI had a christmas dinner, in a restaurant at Marienplatz.

The entertainment... hhmmm kinda fun :P

The Masters... The Padawan... hehehe

The department's house dog.. kinda cute that way hehehe

THE MEAL... "ANGSA GENDENG" (that's "crazy goose" hehehe) this goose's leg is as big as a goat's leg!! (well Indonesian goat that is...)

..and my new fantastic friends.. Ole & Oli hihihi.. (kinda like duo don't they?) :P

hhmmm yeah.. nice christmas dinner

22 December 2005

2005-12-27T02:49:00.000+07:00

Song for Mama

You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn’t anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You’ll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul

You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin’ me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul

BoyzIIMen

It's been so long since I last remember about Mother's Day. Funny how memories just pops up in our minds when we're far away :)

Just remember, that when I was a little girl.. I always looked up at my mom and said in my heart.. "I wanna be like her when I grow up", and I remember that everytime I looked at her, I always said to her "you're the most beautiful woman in my life.."

...and the thought still remains...

I love you Mom... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY*

*in Indonesia the Mother's Day is on Dec 22nd

Kerja 'Kantoran'

2005-12-26T17:34:00.000+07:00

--> Hari pertama, langsung dpt meja :)

Yak.. Carita 'kerja kantoran'.. hehehe terdengar aneh memang. Tapi demi mendapat suatu pengalaman yang berharga kan gak ada salahnya tokh...
Tenang, kerja freelance sih selalu, kan sebagai "Freelancer Tetap" (loh gimana sih?..) harus mempertahankan reputasi, nanti sepulang dari negeri jauh ini, kolingan (that's : calling - an ) heheehe tetap dinanti.

Jadi ceritanya nih, tidak mau melewatkan kesempatan berharga. Mumpung dapet, mumpung bisa, mumpung ditawarin. Kapan lagi ditawarin (dibayar lagi) untuk ikut 'training program' oleh sebuah perusahaan kamera film yang sudah mendunia ini... iya, namanya Arnold & Richter Cine-Technik, atau org2 lebih mengenalnya sebagai ARRI. Mereka sedang mengembangkan sebuah kamera film-digital (hhhmmm), digital film-style camera kalo menurut istilah mereka. Namanya D-20.. sebetulnya saya mau menjelaskan seperti apa kamera ini.. tapi nanti jadi terlalu teknis.. org2 pd bosan hehehe.

Ya, pokoknya sekitar awal tahun lalu saya iseng2 (atas saran seorang teman,guru,kakak, atau apa lah... "thx Mas!!.." ) korespodensi dgn para ahli yang mengerjakan proyek ini, sekalian mencari info karena harus menyelesaikan sebuah 'tugas mulia' dr kampus. Ternyata mereka blg lebih baik saya kesini saja (Munich) agar dpt lebih intens dan benar2 'bersentuhan' dengan apa yang hendak dibahas, dan hebatnya lagi! mereka bersedia menyediakan biaya bagi kebutuhan hidup saya selama disini...!! kalau.. proposal saya diterima :)

Nah.. itulah kenapa saya bisa disini sekarang. Satu minggu sudah merasakan kerja kantoran (dan sekarang libur 2 minggu!! hehe)
Sempat juga mengikuti sebuah produksi iklan, karena produksinya memakai kamera D-20 itu.

Dan satu yang saya sadari ternyata sama seperti di tanah air adalah :

Seorang "Camera Assistant" wajib, kudu, harus memiliki keahlian memijat, karena suatu saat akan dituntut untuk memijat oleh DoP (Director of Photography) -nya... hehehe.

Nice Hair.. Dude!

2005-12-24T04:32:00.000+07:00

Just realized... (after a week)

That Dove shampoo combine with the snow and cold dry winter... can make my hair really into these stylish cool look (hahaha yeah right)..

In the morning...

...and at night

Who needs styling gell??!! :P

3 of My Favorite Stars

2005-12-23T22:03:00.000+07:00

I always love the sky..
Especially at night.
It's nice how the stars r always there..
watching you.

Even in the most lonely nights,
U wont feel alone, cause U know they're there :)

The moon has always been my sanctuary,
and the stars are my fullfillment.

They can make me smile, can even make me laugh.
The nights when they're not there..
is the night that I might feel my sorrow,
I know you're all there.. It's just that I can't see you.

But among all the stars.. There're only 3 that I consider the best.
That can and will always bring happiness to me.
It's you guys..

I love you

...and will always miss U!!

Subuh Pake Lonceng

2005-12-23T21:21:00.000+07:00

OK... Pada waktu pagi pertama di kamar ini, saya dikejutkan dengan bunyi lonceng gereja sebelah yang berdentang bersamaan dengan alarm yang menandakan waktu sholat subuh dari PDA saya.
Hhmmm setelah dipikir2 besok2 berarti tdk perlu lagi memasang alarm subuh, hehe agak ironis dan beda memang..biasa mendengar adzan berkumandang subuh2.. sekarang dengar lonceng berdentang subuh2 (FYI disini subuh sekitar jam 6-7 utk saat sekarang)

Tampak samping tower gereja dr jendela kamar..

PlinganserStr

2005-12-23T17:22:00.000+07:00

Finally, I'm here... well it's been 10 days, n I'm feeling great untill now (hope it'll stay this way hehehe).
I'm staying with Alex, this nice guy from ARRI who let me stay in a room up on the Attic (n I love it!) in his Flat (well we live at the 3rd floor, the 2nd floor is a restaurant and the 1st is a Bakery), kinda cool that way :)

My room...

Capoeira Sejak Dini

2005-12-22T01:58:00.000+07:00

Ya.. bersih-bersih adalah salah satu pelatihan capoeira yg kami terapkan pd balita..

Cah.. gemblung :P

KM 0 Indonesia

2005-12-21T15:46:00.000+07:00

Bangga deh rasanya sudah pernah menginjakkan kaki ke kilometer 0 Indonesia, iya diujung sabang sana. Thx to Agus&Rony, yang ngajak 'liburan' setelah shooting "Sejarah Negeri yang Karam" di Ulelheue Banda Aceh.
--> Bukti hehe :P

Menatap senja...

My Blue Eye :)

2005-11-20T11:25:00.000+07:00

Hehehe keren ya? kayak jagoan... waktu itu sih ngakunya abis berantem dan ketonjok :P
well it's my 2nd major injury (define major injury: it's an injury that still have effects e.g pain, bruises, incapability of a body part.. for 2 weeks or more) in capoeira.
Well.. no pain no gain..

Full Moon in Pelourinho

2005-11-20T10:42:00.000+07:00

As I stroll along the streets of Pelourinho, enjoying the vibe, resting my mind from the 'usual' thoughts... I look up to the sky, and.. there she was watching at me... beautifull isn't she? :)

CGK-GIG III

2005-11-11T08:56:00.000+07:00

...AND...

Hey!!.. notice the language??!!! YEAAHHH WE’RE FINALLY THERE!!

CGK-GIG II

2005-11-11T08:39:00.000+07:00

... …we slept… and…
…we waited some more… My boarding passes… :)

ALL ABOARD....

CGK-GIG I

2005-11-11T07:46:00.000+07:00

Can’t wait can’t wait can’t wait!!! To much excitements… can’t think of anything else…
And finally… we’re flying!!
Brazil is half a globe away from Indonesia… so it took almost 2 days for us to get there… And half way there..

We have to do the transit in Frankfurt… for 17 hours!!!! So we waited…
….and we waited… check the web… we sits...

…we took photos…

...To be Continued...

Garzha Pergi ke Ulang Tahun

2005-10-25T21:06:00.000+07:00

Ini cerita tentang Garzha keponakanku yang berusia 1 thn 10 bulan. Tidak seperti kebanyakan anak laki2, di usianya yang belum sampai dua tahun itu sudah banyak sekali kata-kata dan kalimat yang sudah bisa dia ucapkan, yah bisa dibilang dia talkative (alias cerewet!!) J

Suatu hari Garzha pergi ke ulang tahun teman kakaknya, dan merekapun duduk di bangku2 yang sudah sedemikian rupa diatur menghadap ke panggung acara...

Mbak pembawa acara : Adik-adik, siapa yang sudah mandi?

Anak-anak besar : sayaaaaaa... (sambil semuanya mengacungkan tangan)

Garzha diam namun celingak-celinguk melihat kakak2 yg mengacungkan tangan, dia yakin dia juga bisa seperti anak2 besar itu.... maka pada pertanyaan selanjutnya...

Mbak pembawa acara : ..siapa yang sudah bikin PR?...

Anak-anak besar+Garzha : Sayaaaaa....!! (percaya atau tidak Garzha tereak dengan lantang hingga suaranya terdengan sampai ke tempat org2 dewasa duduk...hingga org2 melihat ke arah dia sambil tersenyum)

Dengan sumringah dan percaya diri krn tahu dia diperhatikan org2.. lalu dia menunggu pertanyaan berikutnya...

Mbak pembawa acara : Siapa yang mau makan kueeee??

Anak2+Garzha : Sayaaaaaa...!!!! (lagi-lagi suara Garzha terdengar seantero tempat pesta)

Dan, pertanyaan berikutnya...

Mbak pembawa acara : (sambil menunjuk ke papan bergambar kucing)Ini namanya apaaaa?

Anak-anak : kuciiiiinnng...

Namun pada saat yang bersamaan tanpa berpikir panjang dan dengan percaya diri yang sudah mencapai puncak Garzha menjawab...

Garzha : SAAYAAAAA!!!...

Hehehe... terlepas lah tawa para hadirin yang dari tadi sudah memperhatikan Garzha.. tapi emang dasar anak yg PD nya selangit (dia itu anak kecil paling PD yg pernah aku kenal), dia hanya membalas dengan tawa nya yang khas... dan yakin bahwa apa yang dia lakukan amat menghibur bagi yang lain.. (walaupun tdk bermaksud utk melucu.. dan hanya kesalahan semata)...

Dan pesta pun berlanjut dengan meriah...

Di mobil dalam perjalanan pulang...

Ibu : Dek Garzha, seneng ya tadi di pesta..?

Garzha : (dengan senyum simpul..) seneng..

Lalu dia menunduk dan seperti berpikir.... dan tiba-tiba...

Garzha : SAAAYAAAAAAAA...!!!!

---TAMAT---

Moral pada cerita ini : Bayi kok SRIMULAT.. :P

Garzha

Temu Idola.... Tapi Khawatir :P

2005-10-07T23:15:00.000+07:00

Seharusnya tulisan ini sudah di-posting dari beberapa bulan yang lalu.. sewaktu masih hangat-hangatnya, tapi apa daya.. berhubung bukan penulis, jadi gak kunjung dapet ide.. gimana mau jelasinnya hehehe..

Terus terang, saya amat setuju dengan perkataan/semboyan/pernyataan (atau apalah namanya) sebuah grup lawak, yang bunyinya : "tertawalah, sebelum tertawa itu dilarang", mungkin sampai sekarang belum banyak (atau mungkin belum ada) orang yang tahu, bahwa orang-orang yang saya idolakan adalah para pelawak, atau paling tidak orang-orang yang pandai melucu. Benyamin, Ateng-Iskak, Grup PSP, beberapa anggota srimulat, Three Stooges, Charlie Chaplin... adalah orang-orang yang senantiasa membuat saya tergelak, belum lagi keluarga besar ibu saya yang memang gemar 'melawak', dari lawakan Jawa-semarang.. sampai Arab-Betawi (yaa.. kebruntungan percampuran suku hehehe).

Singkat cerita, walaupun rata2 pelawak yang saya idolakan adalah para 'angkatan tua', tapi ada juga nih satu grup yang merupakan kelompok yang belum teralu 'tua' (kalau dibandingkan dengan srimulat), tapi juga sudah cukup berpengalaman (jika dibandingkan dengan 'lulusan' API). Sebuah kelompok asal Bandung, yang lebih tepat disebut 'proyek lawak' daripada grup hehehe :P Bisa dibilang saya sangat mengidolakan kelompok ini, karena mereka membawa 'hawa' baru bagi dunia hiburan komedi di Indonesia,yaitu parodi.

Pada masa itu, terus terang saya tidak henti2nya mendengar album-album mereka sampai pita kasetnya kusut hihihi.... menyenangkan, menghibur, gak bosan, gilak, dan aneh, yaa terlalu sulit lah buat dijabarkan, lagi-lagi karena saya bukan penulis :P

Ada satu lagi yang membuat saya selalu tertarik, yaitu salah satu personil 'proyek' itu yang wajahnya menurut saya amat ramah (karena tidak pernah terlihat cemberut) tapi juga terlihat selalu khawatir hehehe... Naaaaahhh sejak saat itu... jangankan memang berniat melucu... sekedar liat mukanya saja saya sudah bisa tertawa... sambil selalu bertanya "kenapa sih mukanya selalu khawatir?" :P

Dan bertanyaan itu tetap tersimpan di otak saya.. hingga beberapa bulan lalu.. ketika akhirnya saya mendapat kehormatan untuk bisa mengenal lebih dekat (dan sulit dipercaya setelah sekian lama saya tidak pernah melihatnya lagi.. tapi wajahnya tetap khawatir!!)... akhirnya... muncullah pertanyaan :

"Kang.. kenapa sih wajahnya selalu khawatir?..."

Dan dia hanya menjawab dengan senyum hehehe... walaupun pertanyaan itu belum terjawab... tapi saya puas karena sudah bertanya... :)

Jadi.. kenapa khawatir??? :P

Colours of the Sky

2005-04-15T18:36:00.000+07:00

It was the 20th March '05..
I was above the clouds, watching the sun faded away.
The sky only consist of two colours..
blue, and a shade of orange,
nothing more.. It's only dark all arround.
But it was a beauty side of the dark.
I never know wether it's a real beauty or...
is it because I was thinking of you when I watched it.

Hhhmm.. I closed my eyes,
trying to imagine your eyes, your smile, your lips.
I tucked myself deeper into the blanket,
trying to remember the warmth hug you gave me.

Hey!! what do you know?!

There was a falling star a second after I opened my eyes...

I know this sounds silly...
But I figured... a wish is just..
another way of praying.

So I wish for the time to give us a chance to be together again...
Soon... :)

If I May Say So...

2005-01-16T14:29:00.000+07:00

BEING ALONE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE LONELY
A SILENCE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE NO SOUND
SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE YOUR OWN WORLD
IS IT WRONG IF YOU HAVE YOUR OWN LANGUAGE?
YOU NEED NO SHOULDER TO CRY ON
YOU NEED NO BLANKET TO KEEP YOU WARM
YOU NEED NOTHING
YOU NEED NOBODY...
YOU HAVE THE WORLD INSIDE OF YOU
IS THAT SIMPLE, YOU MAY WEEP WHEN YOU FEEL SAD
YOU MAY LAUGH OUTLOUD IF YOU'RE HAPPY
NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND YOU, NOBODY CAN READ YOUR MIND...
DIFFERENT IS WHAT YOU ARE, AND IT IS WHAT YOU'RE GOOD FOR...

Thoughts Before the Deep

2005-01-11T17:15:00.000+07:00

"When the dancing star shows, and the night wind blows
I face the skies and close my eyes...
I hate to go, and don't wanna flow
But the dreams come into sight to say goodnight... "

Kiss

2004-12-13T14:23:00.000+07:00

A kiss is just a kiss, well at least that's an opinion that I kept in my mind.. untill earlier today :)
I've witness a perfect kiss, I never realize the existance.. for years and years of my life... it's so sincere and spontanious, not really a big deal, just a simple kiss on the cheek... it's not my cheek, it's not my lips, nothing was mine... only a second of sight with my eyes, and recorded into my mind.. and it'll remaind in there for God knows how long. Only the glorious memory is mine :)

Caffeine

2004-12-12T16:31:00.000+07:00

Did you know :

Introverted people r more sensitive to caffeine effects than the extroverts?.... well.. they r, so wich one r you?? me? I'm a caffeine free person.. except for those in HERSHEY'S ALMOND CHOC. BAR!!! Yummy....

Every working days Starbuck opens 4 new outlets somewhere on the planet, and hires 200 new employees... wow that's quite a contribution for the countries with high percentage of unemployed people.. how's that ILO??? hehehe